An amazing and horribly sucking thing

Sometimes in life you make really tough decisions.
Yes, I know that that seems like a bit of a banal statement, but it really says so much when you think about it.

The last year seems to be full of a lot of tough decisions for both me and the people I am close with.

Tim and I decided to leave NYC. Super tough. We love it there. Tim was making good money and I was at my dream job with people I really loved working with, doing things I always wanted to do.

My sister decided to leave Spain and come back to the states while waiting to see if she receives her fullbright scholarship. Coming home was great for her (and us!) but also a really difficult decision to change everything in her life like that.

After 36 years of marriage, my parents made a ridiculously tough decision to separate. Although I am not going to get into the particulars, that is obviously the toughest one that has happened.

I guess you have to make decisions all the time, some of them you think about long and hard, others just sort of happen. Would I like to wear these orange shoes with those green socks? No, that would look aweful. See, easy decision.

I interviewed for a position that was perfect for me in everyway (almost).
It was for the Exhibitions Coordinator at the Arts Council here in Saratoga. The job description might as well have read:
Job Duties Include:
1. be Kathleen Lucey
2. be Kathleen Lucey
3. be Kathleen Lucey
The organization is wonderful. The people who both work and volunteer there are interesting, motivated, creative, fabulous people.
They offered me the job yesterday.
After a lot of searching and thinking and talking and frustration, I turned it down.

So many questions going through my head and so many uncertainties.
It was really hard. But, I guess the reality is that once you make the choice, then the rest is just dealing with what comes at you next.
Now, where did I put those polkadot pink socks, that works better with orange shoes, right?